HAHA. HELLO! :D yippy! moving house soon. but actually im quite sad, to leave this place. where it holds memories of my growing-up years. at least, where i remember it the clearest and the dearest. WELL, its okay! sometimes, moving on with the rest of your life, starts with goodbye. well, i'll make sure the years in my new place will be ALOT better, alot alot better(: not that its bad now. its good! but im gonna make it BETTER. how? i dont know. but its always good to have a goal in mind isnt it? ha ha.
and i've half a mind not to touch my homework already, should i? haha, its giving me a major headache. its like, everyone is enjoying their christmas and all. here i am at home, trying to some homework.(note:key word: TRYING HAHA) and then suddenly, at every period of the day.i'll get called to do this, to do that. i dont blame anyone for that.its necessary that i help cos WE are moving, its US not just ONE individual. so yeah, GIVE AND TAKE (:
hmmm, well, im trying to make myself happier. and i WILL SUCCEED! (: haha. cos now i know what are the stuff thats making me unhappy. and i'll BLOCK it out, i wont run away. its the ATTITUDE im gonna give it. the way i look at things, my perspective.
you know, looking back somehow its like. when i first stepped into TJ, of cos i was unhappy for some time but after when i found my friends and found school enjoyable to attend, thats when i started being happy and cheerful. but soon enough, the presssures of studies starts piling in.the realisation of not being able to ADAPT, not adapting well enough, that resulted in alot of consequences (for eg, results). and the fact that i was still so complacent, i really was. and i regret for that. although i am glad now that i realised it (: BUT somehow along the way, i lost my passionn for Christ. everything else took the front seat and my abba Father, the backseat. i know i tried hard to put him first. i didnt try hard enough i know. but i did try, but the effort is in no way commendable enough such that my passion for Him was revived. no, it didnt. the values i learnt when i was passionate for Him, and the Fruit of the spirit: LOVE, JOY, PEACE, PATIENCE, KINDNESS, GOODNESS, FAITHFULNESS, GENTLENESS, SELF-CONTROL. i can memorise them by heart but i never practiced them. NEVER. especially the last one. i was so lacking in that. there were posts along the route throughout the year to remind myself, but no, i was as stubborn as a mule, getting caught up in all the nonsensical materialistic stuff in life, in teenage girls delights, worldly pleasures, complaining about everything but not myself, and hating everything that went wrong.not wrong but not in accordace to my wishes. which really sucked and made the ME now, really sucky. in what way sucky? ENVY. JEALOUSY. ANGER. the banes of my life. i need change, desperately and fast. which i know i will change, because i realised my mistake and its never too late to turn back. REPENTACE is also something which im thankful for that DADDY God will see and willl forgive. im grateful as well for the monthly DAILY BREAD, which gives me the energy to sustain the entire day and entire week. no, i dont mean BREAD as in carbos and all. but i meant. this little book which has the power to ENERGISE you.spiritually and mentally. which is far greater than any other BREAD AKA CARBO.which helps to energise PHYSICALLY.yeapps.
and so, CHANGE is the only thing that is CONSTANT in life. which i will undergo. in process already. ANTICIPATE A NEW ME. (: count your many blessings, and soon, you'll lose count.
